He's finally mine.

@August 23rd, 2010 at 12:17AM PST. We're official.

I've been through too much. We've been through too much. Everything happens for a reason right? So all the tears, confusion, and frustration were worth it in the end? I mean, after all this time and after reading about the emotions I went through because of this kid, here we are. August 14th was definitely the turning point. It's crazy how things work out. It's crazy how feelings change. It's crazy how everything seems to be falling into place.

Finally.

I'm happy. I'm genuinely happy. Wow, it's been a while since I've been able to say that. :)<3

Remember2smile

Lately I've been emotionally confused. I'm just trying to sort out all of my feelings, with hopes to...make sense of life as it is now. With all that has happened, it has left me emotionally distressed and I just really want to get it all figured out before I dive into any future endeavors.

It's a lot of work but I get the feeling I'm going to be okay. I just need to remember to step back, take a breath, and smile.

Today was a good day. I'm always in good company when my mains are around. Had a lot of laughs and good moments. They're really good at distracting me, I love them for that.

I found my smile. It was right under my nose, I just forgot it was there.

Chill pill.

Taking a break from social networking (in other words, Tumblr and Facebook). I figured it was time to pause and take a step back to enjoy what's already around me. I realized that this is my last summer home before leaving for college and I don't want to waste it in front of a computer screen absorbed in social drama. It's time to take a chill pill and relax instead of obsessing over pixels on a screen.

I have a lot planned for this summer and I'm excited to get it rolling. Today, I set up a home theater in my room with the help of a white tablecloth, push pins and Stephen's projector. It's so boss! Super chillax, just how I like it.
Tomorrow I'm going to SF with Andy and Court. Time to do some shoppinggg! (: I lalalove SF; I'm going to miss it so much when I leave. I'm sure LA (much less Riverside) doesn't even surmount to how amazing San Francisco is. Apparently the air here is cleaner too. o-O

On Tuesday, Jen, Court, Andy and I are going to Six Flags. Man I haven't been there in forever and I'm super stoked to venture like a mofo. Parental-free day + fat roller coasters + season passes + nothing but time and of course, FUNNEL CAKE! Ahh I can't wait. This week is going to be great. (:

Not sure what I'm doing Wednesday and Thursday but I'm pretty sure I'm either going to be out and about or chillin at home watching bootleg movies on my ghettoly brilliant home theater. HAHA. Friday I'm going to the Rites of Passage rehearsal then a bonfire at Ocean Beach...that should be interesting to say the very least.

Hopefully Manny schedules a fingerprinting appointment with me soon so I can figure out all the details for when I start work. I'm praying to Buddha that it doesn't conflict with my plans otherwise I'll be utterly upset.

Anywhoo, my hiatus is doing great things for me. I cleaned my room, cooked breakfast out of scratch, cleaned the house and did my laundry all in two days. I'm thoroughly impressed with myself haha.

My birthday's in 2 weeks. I'm going to be legal...SCORE! This summer's starting off on a good note, I'm anxious to see how the rest of it goes. (:

Oh, and I currently have 2386 PTZ on Lockerz. HELLO MACBOOK PRO, YOU WILL BE MINE! (;

'Tis all.

P.S. HI ANYTHONG PHAMACY! I was surprised when I saw your comment on my post. It's good to know you still use blogger. (: I'VE MISSED YOU!!!!<3

Memory.

Is it really that hard for me to forget the past? Because no matter how hard I seem to try, it doesn't work. Those feelings associated with these moments bare the emotional vulnerability I once felt. He had that effect on me.

It's amazing how in a matter of months, I fell so hard for someone I never thought I'd fall for. And in the end, I got my heart broken. It's an endless cycle. A cycle that won't leave me alone. Why did I fall so hard for this kid? Wait no, I know exactly why. The real question is why can't I fully let him go? I've moved on but for some reason there's still a small part of me that's shaken when I see anything that reminds me of him or when people mention his name. It's frustrating because I keep thinking about him. These memories keep flooding back--good and bad. UGH. I must stop this. I have to rise above this, show him that it's not affecting me because it sure as hell seems like he's not phased by this one bit. Mothereff. Why are you so good at suppressing your emotions?! asdjfa;sjd; You and your damn perfected mask. I can't show weakness otherwise that means I lose and being the stubborn person that I am, I hate losing. It's pathetic. Whoever cares more loses right? Well I'm going to bring the score to a tie. I want nothing more than to free myself from everything you once were to me. If there's one thing you taught me, it's how to be apathetic. Time to put my gameface on.

Man I can't wait until college.

Tumblr vs. Blogger

It's been a little less than 11 months since I last wrote in this. Amazing how fast time flies hm? My day by day accounts have been documented on my Tumblr where my train of thought lies.
Here, I feel more...serious. As though what I say is a combined effort of my heart and mind and my thoughts and feelings are replicated through thoughtful words. Tumblr has become a popularity game. There is a part of me that second guesses myself before I click the "create post" button. I choose my words too carefully, in fear that others will criticize my rambling and brutally banter me to no end. (Ugh, Formspring. -_-')
I have returned to Blogger in hopes to reconnect with my old self, the old me who let the words flow through her fingers and feared no one. I feel like this is a place where I can write to my heart's content without anyone caring or judging me...much less, reading it. Heh. I read back upon my previous posts here and was amazed at what power my words embodied. But then again, that was a different me, a different time. Where has that person gone?
With that being said, I have come to a conclusion that I will use Tumblr as a rambling outlet and revive my Blogger back to a state where it acts as a home for my more serious and mindful meanderings about life. Indeed. I shall update with a more cohesive and interesting post soon enough.

Yay for perpetuations. (:

You. Are. Awesome.

LOL.

Who even reads blogger anymore? :o
IF YOU DO, COMMENT. I'm curious. :]


Anyways, I'm on Tumblr now :]
kickbhuttninja.tumblr.com

I might come back everysooften to ramble on about my ridiculous life.

Recap: EPIC WEEKENDS

Okay so since I failed to post about my adventure last weekend, I decided to combine my two super epic weekends all into one post ^^

So last weekend Court, my parents, and I went down to LA for the Hollywood Bowl.

I think we left the house around 2AMish, so we didn't get there til like, 9-10AMish.
[PT.1 - in the car, on the way]


[PT.2 - @ San Antonio Winery]


We made a stop at the San Antonio Winery because apparently their wine's really good and it was the reason why my parents were willing to drive us all the way to LA--to buy some good wine >_> haha. But whatever, the man that helped us was nice, he gave Court and I a bottle of like, sparkling peach juice. It was fancy ;o haha ^^
Then after that, we went to go search for our hotel. Once we found it, we realized we couldn't check in til 2PM and it was like, 10AMish and my parents were hungry so we hung out at this one plaza at the corner of the street our hotel was on.

[PT.2.99 - Beverly Center randomness]


Soon after, Ben and Wonga met us at the corner plaza :D Funny meeting. But since Weenee was running late, we had to wait. Unfortunately, many of SoCal friends couldn't make it so we ended up just hanging out with Ben, Wonga and Weenee :D First, we went to the Beverley Center. Apparently nothing went as planned and we kind of just ran around doing nothing while people gave us weird looks :]

[PT.3 - "cat and mouse"]


So yeah, we pretty much did nothing but walk around because we didn't have time to watch a movie. And Weenee kept running away so we had to go look for him -.- lameoh d; Lalala and I attempted to steal Ben's domo hat (IFREAKINWANTIT D:) buttttt he ran after and caught me T_T Lol Wonga filmed it.

After that, we cruised around Ktown. And because Court and I hadn't eaten yet, we went out for lunch. We found this random Korean restaraunt and ate there. Lol lunch was interesting xD PORNO MANIA FTW! LOLOL.
We drove around Ktown for a bit then after that, we went to Chinatown. Chinatown was...amusing. POPWATCHUMACALLITS PWN :] haha. We had fun with those. But yeah, we kinda just walked around and chilled. Ben bought me boba :D

[PT.4 - ]


After Ctown, we didn't have enough time to go to the Santa Monica Pier like we planned/hoped so we ended up going to the park because that's how the cool kids roll ;D xD
The park was definitely memorable. Lalala it was chill. We enjoyed the whole "releashing your inner kid" ordeal x]
After that, we had to go back because the HB was supposed to start at 6:30PM however, I ended up not going because I gave my mom my ticket for Mother's Day. She loves SS501 and I know how badly she wanted to see Hyunjoon in person so I was feeling nice and gave her my ticket so she took my place and went with Court. Which left me 4 hours to do absolutely nothing at the hotel. Haha, bonding time with dad much? lol but after a while, I got bored and chilled by the pool by myself. Then I ventured around the hotel and there was this creepy guy following me so I freaked out and ran back to my room lol. Then I took a nap but yeah. It was chill and good rest after a long and hot day.

But yeah, despite the failed plans, it was still a lot of fun :] I definitely won't forget that day xD



ANDANDAND then the weekend after was the EPIK HIGH CONCERT IN SF! :D
Met up with Lauren Friday night and we went to SF together. We friggin had to walk up super steep hills but whatever, once we got there it was like Asian heaven xD The place was flocked with Asian people :3
Uhmmm but we didn't get shirts D: There was a friggin mob around the table and there was this big white guy yelling at everyone haha. So we found our seats WHICH WERE SUPER DUPER CLOSE TO THE STAGE :O --Section 1, Row 3 ;D It was lovely.
The concert lineup went as follows: Far East Movement, Kero One, then Epik High 8D
Far East Movement was realllly upbeat and fun. THEY THREW A PAIR OF SEXY SHOES TO THE CROWD. UGGGH WE WERE SO CLOSE, FRIGGIN COURT SHOULDA RAN AND ATTACKED THE GUY WHO CAUGHT THEM D: They were super sexy shoes ;_; And they also threw like, two shirts but we didn't get them D: But chyeah. Dammit Lauren and I were supposed to rape the guy with the purple backpack and sexy purple shoes ;__; ...we forgot. lol
Kero One was chill. Kinda boring at first but it was okay. Took them a while to set up their stuff due to technical difficulties but I think everyone was kinda bleh during his perf because we were all anticipating Epik High x] HAHA, there was this random weird lady on the stage with Kero One and she like, danced awkwardly in the background. We had fun watching her awkwardness. xD
THENTHENTHEN EPIK HIGH CAME ON!!!!!! First they put DJ Tukutz and the beatboxing man out to get us pumped. Then Tablo, Mithra, and MYK came on. IT WAS AMAZINGGGG. THEY'RE AMAZINGGGGG. TABLO'S SO SEXY IN PERSON<3 He spit water on Lauren and I, TWICE ;D I was so happy. LOL. Omg they were sooo nice and humble and cute and such dorks. TABLO IS SO SEXY IN PERSON! AHH I STILL CAN'T GET OVER THAT. We were SOOO close to them too @__@ Ahhhhh. I want his beanie x_x
At one point, the whole crowd ran up to the stage so there was a mosh pit surrounding the WHOLE stage. We couldn't get to the front so Lauren and I ended up standing on the armrests of our seats xD Which put us straight in front, and higher than everyone else. So close, I could almost reach Tablo if he stretched his arm out far enough. HE SMILED AT ME @_@ MITHRA DID TOO :D AND THE BEATBOX MAN :D AND MYK! Wahhh<3
The concert was just alltogether fun. OH, and at one point Jommi came over to say hi xD He's so short bahah :]

So then after the concert, Court and I spent the night over at Lauren's house. GOODTIMES x]
We talked about a lot of stuff and had some interesting phone calls with other people. HAHA, I LOVE LAUREN'S MAN VOICE. We screamed so much at the concert, we practically lost our voices. I managed to preserve mine but Lauren's was practically gone so she sounded like a pedo old man when she talked because of the huskiness xD<3 Mhmm, that night was funfunfun ^^
Then the next day, Saturday, Lauren's parents dropped us off at my house and then Jommi and Steeb came over. Then we went to Emeryville to watch Star Trek ^^ Mm, oh we went to Cold Stones before the movie ^-^ BUT ZOMG STAR TREK IS SO GOOD. I DEMAND YOU TO WATCH IT, NAO. :D Thennn after that we chilled at Barnes and Nobles til Lauren and I had to go.

Two great weekends. I'm happy. (:

Yes, this is true.

Eddie - Over


I used to believe in happily ever afters.
But now I'm starting to realize that...there is no such thing.
Forever does not exist.
Fairytale endings do not exist.
There's only the harsh realization that once we survive the pain, life goes on.
And sometimes, no matter how badly we don't want to...we gotta let go.


Don’t want to let you go
I really don’t want to see you go
But it’s time for us to say goodbye
I hate to say it’s over now.
Don’t want to let you go
I really don’t want to feel so cold
It’s so hard for me to say goodbye
I hate to say it’s over now
I hate to say it’s over now
I hate to say it’s over now

I hate to say it’s over now.

Find the girl who can complete you and give you everything I couldn't.
...I'm sorry I couldn't give you everlasting happiness but I'm glad you'll remain in my life<3


Goodbye and hello.

I told myself I wouldn't cry.

My heart aches.
...and my eyes burn.




You’re not mine, so why am I scared as hell to lose you?




I have a lot to think about.
Time to reevaluate what I want.

We do da byebye.

Off to L.A I go~

Look forward to a huge long update on Sunday ^^

:D

Strawberries and Watermelons

Yesterday...my lamp broke.
I like, tripped over the cord when I was getting ready for school and it fell and the lampshade ripped off upon impact with my floor. D: Pooooo and I really liked that lamp too ;_;
Oh, and Happy belated 16th, Courtney! I was too lazy to post yesterday so there. lol

MY HEART'S BURNING...of love. No jk, but it really it is really burning...of pain. D: LITERAL PAIN. I ran too hard today and almost passed out ><' And now my legs are shaking like crazy and I can feel a burning sensation from my throat to my lungs. My inhaler did nothing for me. I was so close to an asthma attack, it was horrible. On the bright side, no practice tomorrow ^^ I want to go shopping. Shopping yesterday was unsuccessful for me. T_T I want to buy something pretty before Saturday D: Though I get the feeling I'm going to do a lot of shopping Saturday and Sunday anyways d; BEN AND WEENEE OWE ME BOBA (Weenee owes me sushi too >] muaha!) :D I'm looking forward to that.



Uh, yeah. That's about it for today.

Here's a random video of my cousins and I at the park last Sunday haha.




...everytime I try to walk away, there's always something that reminds me I should stay.

The good, the bad, the happy, the sad.

5 days later. Lol.

So last Thursday, we had a track meet. We totally pwned in the 4x100 relay :]

That's my relay team, they're amazing<3 (Left to right: Lauren, Jenna, Kennedy, ME :D)
I run the first leg, pass it to Jenna, she hands it off to Kennedy, and Lauren anchors or in other words, finishes. 52.3 seconds, so far, we placed 4th in the county :] YAYY!
As for individual races, I got 6th out of 16 girls in the 100m dash. Eh, I did okay. Not great though but I could care less because TRACK SEASON'S OFFICIALLY OVER NEXT THURSDAY. YESSSSS! 8D I'm so ready for this season to end. I'm like, dying. And I think I'm going to quit next year...not sure yet ;o

ANYWAYS, to make up for the days I missed, I'm just going to briefly describe my days:

Friday was uneventful. Slept at 9PM (ZOMGMIRACLE!) because I had SATs the next morning. Toro's a butthead because he was asleep when I called! d;

Saturday was the SAT @ El Cerrito High. 4 hours of poo. It sucked. I died.
Taking the SAT II Subject tests on June 6th. @__@ Then the SAT Reasoning again in October. FML. But I saw a lot of people I haven't seen since middle school so that was nice ^^

Sunday was Court's birthday party (though her birthday's not til tomorrow).
It was fun hanging out with the fambam--haven't done that in a while ;o
Friggin Andy ditched us but you know, it's cool. It's not like we wanted to hang out with you after no seeing you at a family event for months anyways d;. So you know, it's whatever. (YOULAMEHOE! d<) But yeah, Court's a rich butt-itch now. She got so much stuff and money T__T I'm jealous. I wish I still had my money from my 16th ;_; TAKE ME SHOPPING FOO :D

Monday, it rained the whole day and my darn coach still made us go to practice. We ran out in the rain for a good hour. I was soaked all over. -__-' MY RUNNING SHOES ARE SOILED NOW, HOW GROSS >__<>_> Now my ankles hurt. Uhm, but yeah, Monday was tiring. I feel asleep on cam ;o SORRY BEN! Oh, and AILOAN'S AN NWT BECAUSE I SAID SO :D

Tuesday--TODAY. I'm stuck at school til 9PM tonight because of the damn AP US History test on Friday. I don't get home til 9PM. And I can't even go home in between T__T Gah. Funfun ne?

So yeah, right now...my brain feels like it's going to explode. Weeeeeeee. Emotionally, I'm drained and utterly clueless as to what's going on anymore. But let's not go there. I'm giving it time but keep in mind that waiting was something I was never good at. Physically, I'm exhausted. Kind of achey and sore in random areas from my ankles to my hamstrings. Uhoh.
Lalalalalalalalala. Man, I haven't been very happy lately. o_O That's unfortunate. I'm sure things will look up soon. They better >O But I guess I'll just have to suck it up and stick it out for a little while longer.

YAY FOR THIS WEEKEND, AND NEXT WEEKEND! I'M EXCITED ^^


I've been addicted to this song lately: Knock You Down by Keri Hilson feat. Neyo and Kanye West. But in this video, the cover is sung by Rin on the Rox. THEY'RE AMAZING :] Grrr, darn you vocally gifted YouTube singers *shakes fist*

Enjoy! :]



...I've built a wall. Not to block anyone out, but to see who loves me enough to climb over it.

I miss you.

End of story.

Oh how dandy.

I liked today. :]

My friend Zoe made me an "independent woman mix" last night as a little pickmeup present due to her understanding of my recent chain of unfortunate mishaps. I thought it was adorable xD
Lol, she demanded that I listen to it whenever I'm feeling lethargic. So far, so good :]
Sweet gestures make my day<3

But mhmmm. Even though I'm running on 3 hours of sleep, my day was pretty dandy ^^
I had so much to do but it was good that I kept busy. I needed to focus and get things done anyways. Slacking off isn't good and I've been doing a little too much of that lately.
OH OH, AMAZING NEWS.
Court scored some really good seats for the May 15th Epik High concert @SF for her, Lauren and me :D
We got Section 1, Row 3 tickets which is basically http://i41.tinypic.com/29dckgi.png <--this close. ;o 8D SO LEGIT. Tablo will be looking straight at us :O :O :O YESSS. I'm super duper excited! And we're planning on spending the night over at Lauren's after ^__^
Something closer: Hollywood Bowl '09! Two more weeks yo. I'm supersuperduperer excited for that. Er well, not the HB itself but moreso the hang out before. XD That's kind of sad actually. LOL. Anyways, it's on MAY 9TH so if you live in SoCal/will be in the LA area that day, come hang out with us :D I don't know who all is coming just yet but talk to me about it if you want to come :]

I...was going to write more but I'm tired now.
My brain simply doesn't want to work anymore. So I'm just going to stop here for my post for today. I'll continue tomorrow.

I'm happy though, things seem to be looking up :]
I shall sleep peacefully tonight.
KAY, I DO DA SLEEPING NAO. GNIGHT.<3




...I miss your smile.

Renewed beginnings.

Renewed beginnings.

It's been nearly 5 months since I've last written here. ;o So I've decided to revive my blog. Why? Because I need somewhere to vent, rant, spazz, say whatever I want without giving a damn...without having to bring my problems to people because I know it's really irritating having to listen to my problems ^^; And also because simply, I feel like it. d; Lol.

Okay, I've been stressed. Like, really really stressed. And it's bothering me. D:
And due to this stress, I’ve been going through a bipolar phase ._.'
So apparently when things don’t go the way I want them to, I get "butthurt". T_T
And this was pointed out to me recently, lol. I mean, I know I tend to overreact when I don't get my way but I didn't realize it was potentially my biggest flaw. But then again, I have heaps of flaws. Hah, would you like to hear a few? I'm the type of person who thinks too much. When I have time, my mind just goes WHOOSH. I'm a daydreamer, a thinker, an observer, an analyzer. I contemplate everything and every aspect of my life, no matter how small. I jump to conclusions way too fast but I don't state them without a reason. I'm not good at being direct and I'm extremely bothersome when I'm stressed.
So why am I stressed? Lol, good question.
Aside form the normal school assignments like tests, essays, and all that jazz, Junior year is starting to suck major monkeyass. Juniors, you should know what I mean. With SATs, APs, finals, and college apps on their way, I’m freaking out like a motherfoo. On top of that, there's the whole family-friends-school-and sports balancing act I'm trying to maintain. And life shizz. And oh, relationships all-around aren't too hot lately either. I'm fcked. FMLFMLFML. T_T

Anyways, so my moods have been amplified as well. Like, I can switch from being the happiest person in the world to the most sadistic and masochistic person ever. >< But I'm completely sure this is just a temporary phase. I just can't wait til school's over. Maybe then I'll be able to think straight. Lalalala. Oh wells, JUST ONE AND A HALF MONTHS TO GO. Then I'll be A-OK. :]


But it's not all suffering, I'm trying to find time to have fun somewhere in the process;
Haaaa, check out my calendar for the next month or so:
May 2 - SATs + Fine Arts @ Branson, then Adams hang out + preparations for Court's bday party
May 3 - Court's bday party
May 6 - Court's 16th.
May 8 - APUSH test T-T
May 9 - SoCal hangout + Hollywood Bowl :D
May 10 - Mother's day in Oroville? ._.
May 13 - AP English Lit. test T-T
May 15 - Epic High concert in SF :D
May 16 - MCAL Trials for track -_-
June 5 - Last day of classes!...which means major finals studying.
June 6 - SAT II + Linda's wedding *-*
June 8 - 11 - FINALS.
June 12 - Graduation

And that's only the preplanned and finalized-to-date stuff. That's not even taking into consideration my week by week/day by day assignments and whatnot.
ON THE BRIGHT SIDE, I have the Adams reunion, Court's party, SoCal hangout + HB, and Epik High concert to look forward to ^__^
So yeah, that's all for the revival of my blog for today. IF YOU'RE MY FRIEND AND YOU'R READING THIS AND YOU HAVE A BLOGSPOT TOO, LET'S FOLLOW EACH OTHER :D
...I feel lonely ._.' xD


AND AND AND, cute songs make me smile. ^^ Like this one!
She's amazing, isn't she?
Nessa Rica - Muffin Man (Original) :3

I mean, do you mind turning the heat down low
is where we do our thing, a little more than a fling
some kind of romance we're entangled in
I think I'm stuck in a sticky situation
How bout you, be my muffin man?



...I'm on the line of giving up or never letting go.

Dear Santa...

Dear Santa,
When I was making my Christmas list, I thought of so many things that I wanted...but they were unattainable and something you couldn't exactly "buy" for me.
SO, the materialistic side of me came up with this list.
I hope this makes your life a bit more easier when you go shopping for my special present (x

- a cute winter jackets/hoodies
- fob clothes/clothes imported from Asia (bows are cute!)
- COOL SOCKS 8D xD
- iPod (green nano or the original fat white one :3)
- Nintendo DS (white)
- HQ digi cam (sleek and thin)
- grey circle colored lenses
- mufflers/scarves
- lock & key necklaces <--I want this, BADLY.
- DBSK 2009 Korean Calendar 8D
- Skullcandy headphones (chrom-blu or blk-slvr)
- Domo or Hello Kitty bag or shirt
- Pocky bag
- $$$/giftcards

BASICALLY, if it's cute, I'll love it. ESPECIALLY if it has a bow ;3
But Santa, I love sentimental gifts more than anything so surprise me with something sweet (:
I know this sounds so cliche but it's true, It's the thought that counts!

With love,
Sammy Sunshine (:

Like ice.

I love the winter, but I've come to realize: it has a numbing effect.
A part of me tells me not to care but another apart of me can't bare not to.
I have too much on my mind. Save me? :/

On a lighter note, WHO WANTS TO GO TO JAPANTOWN? ^^
Notice I didn't say when. Why? Because we're horrible planners xD
It's gonna be chill, just a hangout type of thing and helloooo~ you get to hang out with me for a day! That should be enough incentive to go xD
Call me up if you want to come, the more the merrier! :D

*christmas list up soon (;

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Currently addicted to: Owl City - Rainbow Veins

High rise, veins of the avenue
Bright eyes and subtle variations of blue
Everywhere is balanced there like a rainbow above you
Street lights glisten on the boulevard
And cold nights make staying alert so hard
For heaven's sake, keep me awake so I won't be caught off guard
Clearly I am a passerby but I'll find a place to stay
Dear pacific day, won't you take me away?
Small town hearts of the New Year
Brought down by gravity, crystal clear
City fog and brave dialogue converge on the frontier
Make haste, I feel your heartbeat
With new taste for speed, out on the street
Find a road to a humble abode where both of our routes meet
The silver sound is all around and the colors fall like snow
The feeling of letting go, I guess we'll never know

Cheer up and dry your damp eyes and tell me when it rains
And I'll blend up that rainbow above you and shoot it through your veins
Cuz your heart has a lack of color and we should've known
That we'd grow up sooner or later cuz we wasted all our free time alone

Your nerves gather with the altitude
Exhale the stress so you don't come unglued
Somewhere there is a happy affair, a ghost of a good mood
Wide eyed, panic on the getaway
The high tide could take me so far away
VCR's and motorcars unite on the Seventh Day
A popular gauge will measure the rage of the new Post-Modern Age
Cuz somewhere along the line all the decades align

We were the crashing whitecaps
On the ocean
And what lovely seaside holiday, away
A palm tree in Christmas lights
My emotion
Struck a sparkling tone like a xylophone
As we spent the day alone
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I want to run away, will you come with me?

The beginning.

Welcome :D
So I started this blog because Jack inspired me to start blogging again ^^
Back in the day, I was into the whole xanga hype but that kind of died so here I am; the rebirth of my day by day documentations.

Hm, well today was pretty uneventful.
I've been busting my ass all of November--consecutive weeks at a time. And I finally get this weekend to myself. November was death.
Went to school 5 days a week and my weekends would be occupied and planned before I'd even realize it.
But thank goodness it's finally December.
Meaning Christmas is near and soon after, it's New Years which means I'm that much closer to freedom.
I forgot what it felt like staying home all day. And quite frankly, I miss it D:
Makes me wonder, when did life begin to get so busy?
I'm tired.
And hungry.
And I want out.
Now.