Eddie - Over
I used to believe in happily ever afters.
But now I'm starting to realize that...there is no such thing.
Forever does not exist.
Fairytale endings do not exist.
There's only the harsh realization that once we survive the pain, life goes on.
And sometimes, no matter how badly we don't want to...we gotta let go.
Don’t want to let you go
I really don’t want to see you go
But it’s time for us to say goodbye
I hate to say it’s over now.
Don’t want to let you go
I really don’t want to feel so cold
It’s so hard for me to say goodbye
I hate to say it’s over now
I hate to say it’s over now
I hate to say it’s over now
I hate to say it’s over now.
Find the girl who can complete you and give you everything I couldn't.
...I'm sorry I couldn't give you everlasting happiness but I'm glad you'll remain in my life<3
Goodbye and hello.
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Monday, May 11, 2009
I told myself I wouldn't cry.
My heart aches.
...and my eyes burn.
You’re not mine, so why am I scared as hell to lose you?
I have a lot to think about.
Time to reevaluate what I want.
...and my eyes burn.
You’re not mine, so why am I scared as hell to lose you?
I have a lot to think about.
Time to reevaluate what I want.
Friday, May 8, 2009
Thursday, May 7, 2009
Strawberries and Watermelons
Yesterday...my lamp broke.
I like, tripped over the cord when I was getting ready for school and it fell and the lampshade ripped off upon impact with my floor. D: Pooooo and I really liked that lamp too ;_;
Oh, and Happy belated 16th, Courtney! I was too lazy to post yesterday so there. lol
MY HEART'S BURNING...of love. No jk, but it really it is really burning...of pain. D: LITERAL PAIN. I ran too hard today and almost passed out ><' And now my legs are shaking like crazy and I can feel a burning sensation from my throat to my lungs. My inhaler did nothing for me. I was so close to an asthma attack, it was horrible. On the bright side, no practice tomorrow ^^ I want to go shopping. Shopping yesterday was unsuccessful for me. T_T I want to buy something pretty before Saturday D: Though I get the feeling I'm going to do a lot of shopping Saturday and Sunday anyways d; BEN AND WEENEE OWE ME BOBA (Weenee owes me sushi too >] muaha!) :D I'm looking forward to that.
Uh, yeah. That's about it for today.
Here's a random video of my cousins and I at the park last Sunday haha.
...everytime I try to walk away, there's always something that reminds me I should stay.
I like, tripped over the cord when I was getting ready for school and it fell and the lampshade ripped off upon impact with my floor. D: Pooooo and I really liked that lamp too ;_;
Oh, and Happy belated 16th, Courtney! I was too lazy to post yesterday so there. lol
MY HEART'S BURNING...of love. No jk, but it really it is really burning...of pain. D: LITERAL PAIN. I ran too hard today and almost passed out ><' And now my legs are shaking like crazy and I can feel a burning sensation from my throat to my lungs. My inhaler did nothing for me. I was so close to an asthma attack, it was horrible. On the bright side, no practice tomorrow ^^ I want to go shopping. Shopping yesterday was unsuccessful for me. T_T I want to buy something pretty before Saturday D: Though I get the feeling I'm going to do a lot of shopping Saturday and Sunday anyways d; BEN AND WEENEE OWE ME BOBA (Weenee owes me sushi too >] muaha!) :D I'm looking forward to that.
Uh, yeah. That's about it for today.
Here's a random video of my cousins and I at the park last Sunday haha.
...everytime I try to walk away, there's always something that reminds me I should stay.
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
The good, the bad, the happy, the sad.
5 days later. Lol.
So last Thursday, we had a track meet. We totally pwned in the 4x100 relay :]
That's my relay team, they're amazing<3 (Left to right: Lauren, Jenna, Kennedy, ME :D)
I run the first leg, pass it to Jenna, she hands it off to Kennedy, and Lauren anchors or in other words, finishes. 52.3 seconds, so far, we placed 4th in the county :] YAYY!
As for individual races, I got 6th out of 16 girls in the 100m dash. Eh, I did okay. Not great though but I could care less because TRACK SEASON'S OFFICIALLY OVER NEXT THURSDAY. YESSSSS! 8D I'm so ready for this season to end. I'm like, dying. And I think I'm going to quit next year...not sure yet ;o
ANYWAYS, to make up for the days I missed, I'm just going to briefly describe my days:
Friday was uneventful. Slept at 9PM (ZOMGMIRACLE!) because I had SATs the next morning. Toro's a butthead because he was asleep when I called! d;
Saturday was the SAT @ El Cerrito High. 4 hours of poo. It sucked. I died.
Taking the SAT II Subject tests on June 6th. @__@ Then the SAT Reasoning again in October. FML. But I saw a lot of people I haven't seen since middle school so that was nice ^^
Sunday was Court's birthday party (though her birthday's not til tomorrow).
It was fun hanging out with the fambam--haven't done that in a while ;o
Friggin Andy ditched us but you know, it's cool. It's not like we wanted to hang out with you after no seeing you at a family event for months anyways d;. So you know, it's whatever. (YOULAMEHOE! d<) But yeah, Court's a rich butt-itch now. She got so much stuff and money T__T I'm jealous. I wish I still had my money from my 16th ;_; TAKE ME SHOPPING FOO :D
Monday, it rained the whole day and my darn coach still made us go to practice. We ran out in the rain for a good hour. I was soaked all over. -__-' MY RUNNING SHOES ARE SOILED NOW, HOW GROSS >__<>_> Now my ankles hurt. Uhm, but yeah, Monday was tiring. I feel asleep on cam ;o SORRY BEN! Oh, and AILOAN'S AN NWT BECAUSE I SAID SO :D
Tuesday--TODAY. I'm stuck at school til 9PM tonight because of the damn AP US History test on Friday. I don't get home til 9PM. And I can't even go home in between T__T Gah. Funfun ne?
So yeah, right now...my brain feels like it's going to explode. Weeeeeeee. Emotionally, I'm drained and utterly clueless as to what's going on anymore. But let's not go there. I'm giving it time but keep in mind that waiting was something I was never good at. Physically, I'm exhausted. Kind of achey and sore in random areas from my ankles to my hamstrings. Uhoh.
Lalalalalalalalala. Man, I haven't been very happy lately. o_O That's unfortunate. I'm sure things will look up soon. They better >O But I guess I'll just have to suck it up and stick it out for a little while longer.
YAY FOR THIS WEEKEND, AND NEXT WEEKEND! I'M EXCITED ^^
I've been addicted to this song lately: Knock You Down by Keri Hilson feat. Neyo and Kanye West. But in this video, the cover is sung by Rin on the Rox. THEY'RE AMAZING :] Grrr, darn you vocally gifted YouTube singers *shakes fist*
Enjoy! :]
...I've built a wall. Not to block anyone out, but to see who loves me enough to climb over it.
So last Thursday, we had a track meet. We totally pwned in the 4x100 relay :]
That's my relay team, they're amazing<3 (Left to right: Lauren, Jenna, Kennedy, ME :D)I run the first leg, pass it to Jenna, she hands it off to Kennedy, and Lauren anchors or in other words, finishes. 52.3 seconds, so far, we placed 4th in the county :] YAYY!
As for individual races, I got 6th out of 16 girls in the 100m dash. Eh, I did okay. Not great though but I could care less because TRACK SEASON'S OFFICIALLY OVER NEXT THURSDAY. YESSSSS! 8D I'm so ready for this season to end. I'm like, dying. And I think I'm going to quit next year...not sure yet ;o
ANYWAYS, to make up for the days I missed, I'm just going to briefly describe my days:
Friday was uneventful. Slept at 9PM (ZOMGMIRACLE!) because I had SATs the next morning. Toro's a butthead because he was asleep when I called! d;
Saturday was the SAT @ El Cerrito High. 4 hours of poo. It sucked. I died.
Taking the SAT II Subject tests on June 6th. @__@ Then the SAT Reasoning again in October. FML. But I saw a lot of people I haven't seen since middle school so that was nice ^^
Sunday was Court's birthday party (though her birthday's not til tomorrow).
It was fun hanging out with the fambam--haven't done that in a while ;o
Friggin Andy ditched us but you know, it's cool. It's not like we wanted to hang out with you after no seeing you at a family event for months anyways d;. So you know, it's whatever. (YOULAMEHOE! d<) But yeah, Court's a rich butt-itch now. She got so much stuff and money T__T I'm jealous. I wish I still had my money from my 16th ;_; TAKE ME SHOPPING FOO :D
Monday, it rained the whole day and my darn coach still made us go to practice. We ran out in the rain for a good hour. I was soaked all over. -__-' MY RUNNING SHOES ARE SOILED NOW, HOW GROSS >__<>_> Now my ankles hurt. Uhm, but yeah, Monday was tiring. I feel asleep on cam ;o SORRY BEN! Oh, and AILOAN'S AN NWT BECAUSE I SAID SO :D
Tuesday--TODAY. I'm stuck at school til 9PM tonight because of the damn AP US History test on Friday. I don't get home til 9PM. And I can't even go home in between T__T Gah. Funfun ne?
So yeah, right now...my brain feels like it's going to explode. Weeeeeeee. Emotionally, I'm drained and utterly clueless as to what's going on anymore. But let's not go there. I'm giving it time but keep in mind that waiting was something I was never good at. Physically, I'm exhausted. Kind of achey and sore in random areas from my ankles to my hamstrings. Uhoh.
Lalalalalalalalala. Man, I haven't been very happy lately. o_O That's unfortunate. I'm sure things will look up soon. They better >O But I guess I'll just have to suck it up and stick it out for a little while longer.
YAY FOR THIS WEEKEND, AND NEXT WEEKEND! I'M EXCITED ^^
I've been addicted to this song lately: Knock You Down by Keri Hilson feat. Neyo and Kanye West. But in this video, the cover is sung by Rin on the Rox. THEY'RE AMAZING :] Grrr, darn you vocally gifted YouTube singers *shakes fist*
Enjoy! :]
...I've built a wall. Not to block anyone out, but to see who loves me enough to climb over it.
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Oh how dandy.
I liked today. :]
My friend Zoe made me an "independent woman mix" last night as a little pickmeup present due to her understanding of my recent chain of unfortunate mishaps. I thought it was adorable xD
Lol, she demanded that I listen to it whenever I'm feeling lethargic. So far, so good :]
Sweet gestures make my day<3
But mhmmm. Even though I'm running on 3 hours of sleep, my day was pretty dandy ^^
I had so much to do but it was good that I kept busy. I needed to focus and get things done anyways. Slacking off isn't good and I've been doing a little too much of that lately.
OH OH, AMAZING NEWS.
Court scored some really good seats for the May 15th Epik High concert @SF for her, Lauren and me :D
We got Section 1, Row 3 tickets which is basically http://i41.tinypic.com/29dckgi.png <--this close. ;o 8D SO LEGIT. Tablo will be looking straight at us :O :O :O YESSS. I'm super duper excited! And we're planning on spending the night over at Lauren's after ^__^
Something closer: Hollywood Bowl '09! Two more weeks yo. I'm supersuperduperer excited for that. Er well, not the HB itself but moreso the hang out before. XD That's kind of sad actually. LOL. Anyways, it's on MAY 9TH so if you live in SoCal/will be in the LA area that day, come hang out with us :D I don't know who all is coming just yet but talk to me about it if you want to come :]
I...was going to write more but I'm tired now.
My brain simply doesn't want to work anymore. So I'm just going to stop here for my post for today. I'll continue tomorrow.
I'm happy though, things seem to be looking up :]
I shall sleep peacefully tonight.
KAY, I DO DA SLEEPING NAO. GNIGHT.<3
...I miss your smile.
My friend Zoe made me an "independent woman mix" last night as a little pickmeup present due to her understanding of my recent chain of unfortunate mishaps. I thought it was adorable xD
Lol, she demanded that I listen to it whenever I'm feeling lethargic. So far, so good :]
Sweet gestures make my day<3
But mhmmm. Even though I'm running on 3 hours of sleep, my day was pretty dandy ^^
I had so much to do but it was good that I kept busy. I needed to focus and get things done anyways. Slacking off isn't good and I've been doing a little too much of that lately.
OH OH, AMAZING NEWS.
Court scored some really good seats for the May 15th Epik High concert @SF for her, Lauren and me :D
We got Section 1, Row 3 tickets which is basically http://i41.tinypic.com/29dckgi.png <--this close. ;o 8D SO LEGIT. Tablo will be looking straight at us :O :O :O YESSS. I'm super duper excited! And we're planning on spending the night over at Lauren's after ^__^
Something closer: Hollywood Bowl '09! Two more weeks yo. I'm supersuperduperer excited for that. Er well, not the HB itself but moreso the hang out before. XD That's kind of sad actually. LOL. Anyways, it's on MAY 9TH so if you live in SoCal/will be in the LA area that day, come hang out with us :D I don't know who all is coming just yet but talk to me about it if you want to come :]
I...was going to write more but I'm tired now.
My brain simply doesn't want to work anymore. So I'm just going to stop here for my post for today. I'll continue tomorrow.
I'm happy though, things seem to be looking up :]
I shall sleep peacefully tonight.
KAY, I DO DA SLEEPING NAO. GNIGHT.<3
...I miss your smile.
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