Renewed beginnings.

Renewed beginnings.

It's been nearly 5 months since I've last written here. ;o So I've decided to revive my blog. Why? Because I need somewhere to vent, rant, spazz, say whatever I want without giving a damn...without having to bring my problems to people because I know it's really irritating having to listen to my problems ^^; And also because simply, I feel like it. d; Lol.

Okay, I've been stressed. Like, really really stressed. And it's bothering me. D:
And due to this stress, I’ve been going through a bipolar phase ._.'
So apparently when things don’t go the way I want them to, I get "butthurt". T_T
And this was pointed out to me recently, lol. I mean, I know I tend to overreact when I don't get my way but I didn't realize it was potentially my biggest flaw. But then again, I have heaps of flaws. Hah, would you like to hear a few? I'm the type of person who thinks too much. When I have time, my mind just goes WHOOSH. I'm a daydreamer, a thinker, an observer, an analyzer. I contemplate everything and every aspect of my life, no matter how small. I jump to conclusions way too fast but I don't state them without a reason. I'm not good at being direct and I'm extremely bothersome when I'm stressed.
So why am I stressed? Lol, good question.
Aside form the normal school assignments like tests, essays, and all that jazz, Junior year is starting to suck major monkeyass. Juniors, you should know what I mean. With SATs, APs, finals, and college apps on their way, I’m freaking out like a motherfoo. On top of that, there's the whole family-friends-school-and sports balancing act I'm trying to maintain. And life shizz. And oh, relationships all-around aren't too hot lately either. I'm fcked. FMLFMLFML. T_T

Anyways, so my moods have been amplified as well. Like, I can switch from being the happiest person in the world to the most sadistic and masochistic person ever. >< But I'm completely sure this is just a temporary phase. I just can't wait til school's over. Maybe then I'll be able to think straight. Lalalala. Oh wells, JUST ONE AND A HALF MONTHS TO GO. Then I'll be A-OK. :]


But it's not all suffering, I'm trying to find time to have fun somewhere in the process;
Haaaa, check out my calendar for the next month or so:
May 2 - SATs + Fine Arts @ Branson, then Adams hang out + preparations for Court's bday party
May 3 - Court's bday party
May 6 - Court's 16th.
May 8 - APUSH test T-T
May 9 - SoCal hangout + Hollywood Bowl :D
May 10 - Mother's day in Oroville? ._.
May 13 - AP English Lit. test T-T
May 15 - Epic High concert in SF :D
May 16 - MCAL Trials for track -_-
June 5 - Last day of classes!...which means major finals studying.
June 6 - SAT II + Linda's wedding *-*
June 8 - 11 - FINALS.
June 12 - Graduation

And that's only the preplanned and finalized-to-date stuff. That's not even taking into consideration my week by week/day by day assignments and whatnot.
ON THE BRIGHT SIDE, I have the Adams reunion, Court's party, SoCal hangout + HB, and Epik High concert to look forward to ^__^
So yeah, that's all for the revival of my blog for today. IF YOU'RE MY FRIEND AND YOU'R READING THIS AND YOU HAVE A BLOGSPOT TOO, LET'S FOLLOW EACH OTHER :D
...I feel lonely ._.' xD


AND AND AND, cute songs make me smile. ^^ Like this one!
She's amazing, isn't she?
Nessa Rica - Muffin Man (Original) :3

I mean, do you mind turning the heat down low
is where we do our thing, a little more than a fling
some kind of romance we're entangled in
I think I'm stuck in a sticky situation
How bout you, be my muffin man?



...I'm on the line of giving up or never letting go.